Monday, 14 November 2011

Well I'm back - again

After a couple of years of stressful family issues my weight has piled on - everything I lost and more - lots more.

Most recently I have been struggling with aches and pains in my muscles and it has taken nearly a year to get some relief from that - it's amazing what an impact drugs can have on you - from pained to pain free almost instantly. Now I can move freely again I can really work out at the gym and I am not used to that - but I am having glimpses of that adrenalin high :-)

Unfortunately I have not been very careful with what I have been eating, instead eating my frustration and pain and filling up on each and every calorie. Now I have to reverse that - I have to get a grip on my food intake and stop snacking on rubbish.

Small steps - but hopefully I can get back on track.

Monday, 25 August 2008

In The LimeLight

I am trying to process the emotional side of weight loss. I know the food and activity stuff but there is more to it than that - clearly or I'd be a different size and shape and my blood pressure would be lower!

One thing I hear was that people struggle to keep weight off because they don't like being the centre of attention.
I'm not so sure about that. I loved it when people would notice that I'd lost some weight or my new top or my clearer skin. I did get sick of having to talk about it ALL THE TIME though.
Perhaps I am more of a behind the scenes girl who likes acknowledgment but not the limelight.
Oh all right then, maybe it is true. So how do I get over it, how do I deal with the attention and not let it sabotage my efforts???

Maybe it's something I just have to get used to and come to love. I'll have to give it another try and let you know. Acknowledging the little achievements and not bashing the failures.

And speaking of acknowledging achievements ...
I worked today so I was not so tempted all day and had much better control of my eating - Yeah!!!
I did not eat anything after dinner - Yeah!!!
I only had one no calorie drink today - all the rest was water - Yeah!!!!
I did not eat any sweets today - Yeah!!! (see it can be done - you could even do it again! :-)

Sunday, 24 August 2008

The Big Stuff

It has finally dawned on me that there is more to loosing weight than just knowing a lot about eating well and exercising - unfortunately its just not as simple as all that!

It's a journey - not a short vacation but a long, long trek - sometimes in the wilderness where lettuce and apples are plentiful and the chocolate is in short supply. You can grumble like the Israelite's and complain that the manna is just not enough or you can have faith and know that good food is enough to sustain you - any more is excess.

I have filled lots of my life with finding out how to lose weight. I know what a "good" diet looks like - lots of fruit and vegetables, lean meats, whole grains and low fat dairy products. And that we should be exercising for at least 30 minutes a day.

But you know what? Knowing all that stuff didn't change a thing about how I looked. It did make me feel worse about my size and lack of discipline and time though. It also exposed lots of contradictions - eat potatoes, don't eat potatoes, don't eat chocolate, eat some chocolate, red meat is bad, red wine is good, fad diets are bad (but I guess it depends on the definition of 'fad')

I lost 13 kgs last year but 5 of those have crept back on and are threatening to bring their mates over. I am starting today to stop their advance!

And even though I know all this stuff I still didn't "get it" - obviously. Now I'm not too sure that I've 'got it' all yet but I have got some stuff. I am lighter than a year ago - and sometimes I forget that. I still look in the mirror and see a big girl - but hey - I am lighter. Perhaps I need to celebrate the small achievements more.

And I have got that exercise is important and heaps of fun - if you let it.
I joined the gym and quickly became addicted to the endorphin rush you get from exercise. i had heard athletes talk about it but never beieved that it existed for real people - like me.
Now don't get me wrong - some days it is hard, real hard, to work out, or even get to the gym but I feel so much better when I do that it makes me want to go even after a day of work + children + chores + stuff.

So I know a lot of stuff but I dtill have a way to go through the wilderness, with a few gym trips thrown in for good measure. I am focussing on one thing at a time - and at the moment it is making good choices and enjoying fruit and vegetables. Wish me luck.